Climbing out of the doldrums

This weekend was better than many I've had recently. I worked 2 12-hour days as a home care aid, helping this elderly lady. Sunday, I had the most restful day off I've had in a long time. I earned it! For months I have been feeling anxious, like I am not doing enough. I could be doing some thing else, makign more money, looking for more jobs, somehow, making ends meet.

I haven't given up on freelancing, or on journalism. Though I did finally tell my editor that I was headed back to school. She wished me luck at this other paper that's hiring. She said many reporters had "cut their teeth" there before coming to work for them. That's fine and good, but this paper pays less than half of what they do for freelance stories, so I know that won't translate to riches for full-time work either.

My mind is made up, and I see this as another big step toward the next phase of my life. Good for me!

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